Some Ramblings

I haven't written in a while, blah, blah, blah.
This is my random blog, so it's ok.



....

Cory Monteith died. Yes, homeboy from GLEE. Finn Hudson, I love you. I am so so sad. I think they said it looks like an OD, and he only got out of rehab in April and what is everyone going to do without Cory... Or without Finn? Glee will never be the same again.


Oh, and by the way. Kyle and I are moving. To Coeur d'Alene. In two weeks. Whaaaaaaaa??? I am so excited and grateful he got a job, but what is going on? We still need to find a place to live. And I'm trying to see all my bff peeps before we go. And we're going to Utah. And we also planned a trip to Jackson and Yellowstone the week/end before we move because we're cool like that. SO MANY THINGS TO DO. But it will be awesome.
And luckily my BFF Isha is willing to pay for a flight to come see me. So that's awesome. I love her.


I love Sonic shakes. Like so much, you don't even know. Kyle "made" me walk to the pillars last night (if you don't know what they are, that's ok, just know it's a bit of a hike up a mountain) and I almost died. But not really, I can do hard things, y'all.
But then Shaeli came and got me and we got shakes and had girl time and freaked out over Grey's and it was wonderful and what am I going to do without my shake and girl time?
I will make new friends.
I'm quite practiced at that.


I just want to find a (good) place to liveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

"A Field of Players"

Remember the time I posted this and said that I would have to find my paper comparing soccer to dating? Well, I found it.

Please enjoy this little gem.


"A Field of Players"

The air is fresh, the players are ready and the goal is in sight. The opportune moment is now. There are many players, it is a team sport. But only one man can win, only one man can make the goal. In this game, emotions go haywire. In the beginning you're excited. By the end you don't care anymore. And the middle? It's up and down like a roller coaster. One day, one play, everything is wonderful, but the next moment is awful and you feel like you have lost everything.

You push, push, push, harder than ever. The goal is what is most important. The emotion is high, the air alive with electricity - and then, failure. She didn't talk to you, your focus wavers. But it comes back into focus quickly; if you want her, you will have her. The game continues to be played.

Flying up and down the field you wait for the moment to get close, you shoot, and you score. The goal is in, the game is won. But come tomorrow? Tomorrow, all of this will be a memory from which you will retreat. For once the goal is made, the game won, nothing matters but the next game, the next goal, the next girl.



It is silly as all get out, but I have to say, I'm pretty proud of that piece of writing.

Gatsby

This is the facebook message I just sent to my BFF, Sarah.


"Also this has nothing to do with you BUT TODAY IS APPARENTLY THE LAST DAY TO SEE GATSBY IN THE REGULAR THEATER IN POCATELLO AND THERE'S NOT A DATE POSTED WHEN IT'S GOING TO THE DOLLAR THEATER AND DAMN ALL YOU IDAHOANS WHO DIDN'T WANT TO SEE IT AND MAKE IT LAST MORE THAN 20 DAYS IN THE THEATER
and I miss you."


I love her. We get each other.

And seriously, WTF Idaho.

Taylor... Oh, Taylor

I'm sitting here watching the Billboard Music Awards, and T Swift just performed.... And. Well, I'll come right out and say it. I have a problem with her.

Let's step back in time for a minute, back to 2006 when I first heard her. The first song I ever heard was "I'd Lie". My dear friend Corey had me listen to it in Mr. Cramer's photo class. I loved it. I thought it was great. Then when "Tim McGraw" came out, I was hooked. I own her first CD. I think it's great.

And then.....
"Fearless" came out and I was pleasantly surprised.
"Speak Now" was pretty good as well.
And "Red" has some catchy things.



BUT.
Some of the songs are so annoying. Some of the lyrics are terrible. Taylor's voice hasn't matured, in fact, I'm pretty sure it's gotten worse. Her live performances are terrible and weird.
She got all famous and always looks SO SHOCKED when she wins awards. But when she doesn't win awards she looks PISSED and like she could kill anyone who took her award away from her.
I know I don't know her personally.... But she seems like a brat.

Don't tell me I'm jealous. I'm not.
Other than the fact that I'm pretty sure I can sing better than her and WTF is she famous?

But then a new song comes out and I learn all the lyrics and belt it out and feel so ashamed of myself but then I buy it and  I hate her more because I'm putting money in her pocket and.... It's a big nasty shame spiral.
Yep.

Also, some of her song sound like she's still in high school.
Get over that shiz.

(Epiphany: Maybe that's why she annoys me so much. She didn't exactly grow up in her music since I first heard her my senior year of high school. I grew up, went to college, got married.... And she's still singing about who knows what happened in high school.)



PS: I'd never date her (if I were a boy) because we'd break up and she'd go all crazy-town and write a song about me.

Missionaries

I haven't been waiting for a missionary for 4 years, and I've obviously never been the missionary, but it still baffles me when I hear about boys "dear janeing" the girl back home right before they get home (right before meaning 1, 2, 3 months before).

Who in their right mind would write to a girl for 23 months, and then decide to not anymore. I don't understand it. Absolutely crazy.

I mean, ok. I understand that feelings change. I understand that feelings are hurt on both sides all the times, during all stages of waiting. But who writes a girl for almost two years, saying that he loves her and wants to be with her when he gets home, and then randomly decides.... well, nevermind. Ridiculous.


That aside.

I thought about writing a post about waiting for a missionary... But that will have to wait.

Favorite Quotes

"Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if 
one only remembers to turn on the light."

"It is our choices who show what we truly are, 
far more than our abilities."

Both courtesy of JK Rowling via Albus Dumbledore

"Laughter is sunshine, it chases winter from the human face."

Victor Hugo

"Love wins, love always wins."

"Love is the only rational act."

Both from Tuesdays with Morrie, by Mitch Albom

"A self is not something static.... It is always becoming."

Madeleine L'Engle

"It is only with the heart that one can see rightly. 
What is essential is invisible to the eye."

From The Little Prince, by Antoine de Saint-Exupery

"I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness 
because it shows me the stars."

Og Mandino

"No matter what people tell you, words and ideas can change the world."
From the movie Dead Poets Society

"Everywhere in nature we are taught the lessons of patience and waiting. We want things a long time before we get them, and the fact that we want them for a long time makes them all the more precious when they come."

Joseph F. Smith

In Memorium

I already wrote a post about my dear cousin Katrina here.

Feel free to read it.

My beautiful cousin gave her life for her little one, and will be greatly missed.